THE EMERALD CURTAIN is a compilation of works that is essentially a conversation between all versions of myself along time. Beginning with pieces such as The House is Bigger Than the Street , which followed an image from my mind’s eye in the bathtub as I made one of the most challenging decisions of my life, to the The Emerald Curtain, Pt. 1 which came about following personal art experiments inspired by psychological literature on the unconscious mind, the series is nothing sort but an autobiographical account of the beginnings of self-discovery, and understanding. Through the pieces in these series, I began to play with my artistic practices and approaches, in order to garner an understanding of what it is I truly wish to create. The series finishes off with Autoscopy , a piece inspired by the hallucinatory phenomena of seeing an external double of oneself. THE EMERALD CURTAIN , is an explosion of a previously poorly restrained energetic “self.”
THE TIMEKEEPER
THIS HOUSE IS BIGGER THAN THE STREET. 18×24. Oil on canvas. 2021. I open my mouth to swallow myself whole limbs brushing up against bleached gums as I descend down. I stayed up too late again tonight my joints are aching and I am counting breaths in my diaphragm. So I tilt forward on my axis, meet the Earth somewhere in the middle as it shifts— even death dances through motion. (deep breaths in, deep breaths out) Anytime I am near the ocean I cement myself deep into the sand. Otherwise my blood may turn to tides as my skin shrivels up to scale, saltwater filling my lungs.
THE EMERALD CURTAIN, PT. 1 12×18, oil pastel on paper. 2022 The joints in my wrist, knees, elbows and more are eroded, frail— x-rays always bits and chips and bits of bones. My composition is all but solid. Looking out towards the sea, I reminisce on a time where I did not have to attempt to take shape. Every form I feel is unnatural, tight; restrictive— maybe hunger acts as a means of becoming because when hungry I am holding something back but when my stomach is full, I am ravenous. I build a dam around whatever it is I am not supposed to speak of; My bones crack again, the wood shakes and snaps; whether the waters are polluted or pristine, I always seep out.
THE EMERALD CURTAIN, PT. 2 12×18. Oil pastel on paper. 2023 The first, second, first, third time the world fell apart, it all fragmented. I achieved an exorcism of sorts through the rubble. Now it all sort of fuses as it falls & I have been attempting to assign psychic attributes to the relentless act of dying and dying and living and dying, so I fertilize myself, birthday party & bones. I am born tomorrow night & last morning I forgot my own name, so I tune into a new channel & remember when need feels like a disease and desire feels like lying, so I step out of my skin and into a plane a little more accessible. My cat knows more than I so I gaze into the water, listening to frog croaks in the back of my head, my hair is wet as water cascades down upon rocks in a rainforest unseen yet remembered. Blinking back I admire a lake as a flame, flickering back I return to my bathtub. Candle lit in front of me, bloody hands placed atop the fire. I light myself up, and exhale the smoke.
Solar Flare 2×18. Oil on pastel, 2024 The door is wide open, I am singing with my chin tucked into my back. the bone between my shoulder blades sticks out, it pokes and prods the air around it, and the trees behind me are speaking everything has something to say I am walking backwards, doing cartwheels sideways, my nose tucked into the underbelly of my hind legs, my palms pressed out against the furthest point of perception, a flame burns bright from my fingerprint. I carry these fires forward, my footsteps ticking to tune of a tiger I carry these fires forward towards cherry blossom trees with sugar on my skin, and caramelized metabolic pathways, resistant to flammable matter, always quite brash in it’s burning. the longer I draw out the sparks that emanant out, the further I am from walking out and towards gateway on the other side and the passageway that follows I draw a map of the outline of all I was and I will be, I draw a map of the sun as I roll into a bridge over it’s crown, I am bending, twisting and turning, resurrected again— I press my palm to the center of my chest and let the fires free. Why are you still waiting? When the clock obliterates all that intersects—beauty and bliss, the lion unfolding; I will return to the sanctity of the Sun.